Yeah I'm a Momma's Girl

So my mom left this morning... it was amazing having her here for a week to do my laundry, take care of Ryder, get meals on the table, and basically keep the house running.... but I can do that stuff. Well maybe not this week, but i'm fine now to do that on my own. I like being a momma to my boys, but what I can't do without is having my mom around. I absolutely hate not having her around to show her the cute newborn outfit Landon has on, to have her hear the funny new thing Ryder is saying, or to watch her cuddle both of them. Ryder got so close to my mom this week since she really had to step up to the plate with him while I let my body rest. The smallest thought of her leaving all week made my eyes fill up with tears, and now that she is gone I think it's time to have one good cry and just let it out. There are times I hate baseball for what it does to us, and today is one of those days for sure. Baseball can go screw itelf. Especially when we aren't even enjoying the actual baseball season. So now i'm left here counting down the weeks until Derrik is healthy again. Hoping they fly by to get my boys back to family, and hoping they drag on at the same time because we absolutley dread the idea of kissing Daddy good-bye for a month or so while he goes to play baseball. Luckily I don't get to control how fast the clock moves and have to just enjoy what I have at the moment.

So yeah i'm a momma's girl, but it can't go without mention how much we appreciated Auntie Ally, Me-Maw, and Aunt Cindy as well. Ryder had such a great time with them, and it makes me so sad that I won't get to see his face light up when family spoils him for quite a while. I try so hard to keep life fun for him, but sometimes he just gets bored with me. I can't wait for the days that he gets to hang out with family and it doesnt have to be such a special occasion. Derrik and I daydream about the days when it's a Friday night and we can call up Grammy and ask her to have a sleepover so we can have a night out.

So yeah... our family is gone. No i'm not some post partum mess over here. I tend to get this sad every time I have to leave, but usually i'm leaving Derrik to see my family or leaving family to come back to Derrik. This time around is really hard because I had the best of both worlds for a whole week that went by way to fast!

I'll get a one week post up about our sweet baby boy a day late probably. It's kind of hard to write a post full of sweet happy baby pictures with tears rolling down your cheeks. For now i'm going to enjoy my first morning home alone with my two boys, count down the hours until Daddy walks through the door, and enjoy our first full night at home by ourselves.

Also a huge thanks to my Dad and Hailey for sucking it up for a week without mom. I know i'm 26, but sometimes I just have to stake my claim on her :) Enjoy having her back home. Thanks to Tom as well for keeping the boys while Tina got to come out here to meet the newest addition!!

Back to happy baby filled posts soon! :)

Photos and Captions

We're still doing great around here. Life is actually simplier now then regular for me. My mom and sister completely take care of Ryder. My mom cooks, cleans, does the laundry, and keeps the place kept up. My only job is Landon (when they don't steal him from me!), and he is kind of boring :) We'll take boring though! We literally do everything we can to get him up to eat. He's been home two nights and both times we put him to bed around 11pm, he woke up around 2am to eat, and we've woken him up at 7am because he's a sleepy head and has to eat! I know it'll only last so long, and i'm enjoying his little newborn coma while it lasts. I remember Ryder being the exact same way.

I had a kind of rough day yesterday physically, but am hoping we are past all the crazy stuff your body goes through giving birth and that my days will only get better from here on out. I'm not a fan of pain meds and am finally completely off of them. I have three more days to get myself ready to do this on my own. I will admit i'm slightly nervous. I know I can do it, but just hope I remember to enjoy it and don't always stress myself out.

We have so many pictures, and I feel like I could do a million blog post with a million stories. I don't have time for that though so I'm just throwing a lot of pictures out there with some captions :)

Landon with his little brother onesie on at the hospital. My goal is to get a good picture of Ryder and Landon in their matching shirts before Landon outgrows this!

Grammy got the last Easter outfit in the store for Landon Saturday afternoon :)

Landon and Grammy

Heading home wasn't any kind of picture perfect story. We were rushing out of there so Derrik could get to the field. The Reds weren't putting pressure on us, but we didn't want Derrik to miss another day of not throwing with his arm at such a crucial point in his rehab. So this picture the nurse took is the best we got.

Car ride home

Napping on Mommy at home... I love this and a soaking it in because I know it'll be hard once my mom is gone, and I'm responsible for Ryder

Grammy and Landon at Landon's 1st doctors appointment

Auntie Ally and Landon

PJ time... We were showing Ryder how Baby Landon's belly is ticklish too

All snuggly for our first night at home

Doing what he does best

Ryder and Landon's Easter baskets

so thankful Ryder was clueless and we could wait to celebrate with him :)

Starting his egg hunt

Checking out his basket with Auntie Ally

Auntie Ally getting some fresh air with Landon by the pool while the big brother swims to let out some energy

Snoozing before his bath

He wasn't crazy over getting his body cleaned, but love the hair part

All Clean... Love that clean baby smell

All ready for night #2

Not sure if Derrik approves this, but I think it's sweet

Ryder came into our room this morning like he would usually do (the Easter bunny kind of messed him up the first morning home), and crawled into bed with us. He looked at me and said "Mommy where's Baby Landon?" I thought it was so sweet and think it was the first time he's really seen me without Landon since he's been born. I got Landon up and didn't really even ask and just put Landon on him. Ryder just kind of really quickly kisses or touches him and walks away. He's just really hesitant around him so it was exciting to see him let me do that. He still never touched him though even when I laid him there.

Resting after a long morning of Heather and I torturing him for some photo ops... will post some of those pictures soon

Hope you enjoyed :)

Tomorrow is the big circumcision day... hoping Me-Maw and Aunt Cindy coming into town right after will cheer him up!!!

Welcome to the World Baby Landon

After our appointment on Thursday nothing happened. Friday was Derrik's birthday so we tried our best to go on with life because sitting around waiting wasn't going to do anybody any good. When Derrik got home from the baseball field we did presents and cake with Ryder, and then we dropped Ryder off at Tricia's for a couple of hours while Derrik and I went to enjoy a birthday dinner. We went to Texas Roadhouse and really enjoyed ourselves. We both knew it would be the last time it was just the two of us for a while. We talked lots about all the exciting stuff coming up in our lives and enjoyed the adult time. We ran a few errands, picked Ryder up, and then we're off for a late night pick up at the airport. Ryder was so excited to see Grammy and Auntie Ally! By the time we all got home, got Ryder to wind down, put him to bed, talked some, and put ourselves to bed it was well after midnight. My mom joked all night that Landon needed to come immediately because she wanted the maximum time possible with him before she left this coming up Saturday. I was up quite a few times with Ryder that night for some reason and didn't feel great. I didn't think it was anything because I haven't felt great for a long time at night. Around 4:30 though I felt nauseous and just kind of off. I tried to tell Derrik, but he kept kind of just talking in his sleep. I finally told him I needed him to focus, asked him if he was truly listening to me, and told him that it wasn't time yet but something was definitely going on. Not but two seconds later I felt a contraction. I immediately felt another and another. I told him contractions wouldn't come on that fast and it must be a stomach ache. It took one more contraction only seconds later to remember how fast Ryder came and to not be dumb about this! I woke my mom up, we packed really quick, and headed out the door leaving Auntie Ally home with a sleeing big brother. My mom and Derrik wanted me to time the contractions so we timed like four on the way to the hospital that were all about 1-2 minute apart. We got there about 45 minutes after I had woken up just feeling nauseous.

Daddy taking charge trying to find out where the heck we go!

Heading in

Painfully filling out paper work

When they took me back to see if I was going to be admitted they made me go back by myself. I wasn't thrilled because I tend to not stick up for myself and wanted them to understand just how fast Ryder came. Apparently you are a different person when you are in pain because as soon as the lady came into the room I told her I was having an identical start to labor as I did with my first born and that it was a disaster, I had to do it natural, and that our doctor almost didn't make it. She took me seriously, immediately got my IV started so the epidural could be put in soon, and had everything rushed as quick as possible. I was 6cm as soon as they checked me which I think helped some in convincing them!

By the time we got into the room the contractions were intense. I would describe them as a 10 on a scale of 10 except I experienced natural childbirth last time and a true 10 is a pain I never even knew existed until I had Ryder and was glad I wouldn't be again. They got my IV in, everything hooked up, and then put in the amazing epidural. It felt like the slightest poke and was my new favorite invention in the whole world! What an a-m-a-z-i-n-g thing!!! They then checked me and said I was 10cm! They said they were going to wait it out a little while and let my body naturally push him down.

Ready to go and so thankful for the epidural :)
This would be my husband napping because we had to "wait". It was about 30 minute between when they said I was 10cm, and they decided to actually get him out. Who elses huband naps when they are 10cm?!

After watching my contractions peak to the top of the screen for those thirty minutes they decided to see if Landon had made his way down. Our nuse was like "oh wow... he's literally right there!" She asked me to scoot up in the bed and then freaked out telling me to stop. She told me to not move until the doctor got in the room because she didn't want to deliver Landon. I laughed, and she told me not to because it was pushing him out more! The doctor made his way into the room, I pushed about half a push, and Landon Brennan Lutz made his grand entrance into this world!

Landon Brennan Lutz

First peek at Mommy and Daddy

So happy!

7 lb 15 oz - 21 inches
8:29 am

Proud Grammy arrived perfect timing once again!

He's already so in love :) Makes me love him even more

The birth was amazing! I love how you wait nine months wondering how the big day will go down and when it does it' perfect. There is no greater story then the birth of your baby. Thanks for amazing technology these days my dad and Hailey were able to watch the birth as it was happening on FaceTime on our phones, we immediately got to send pictures to all our friends and family, and had skyped with most of our immediate family during the hospital stay. Makes being far from home not feel quite so far some days :)

We waited a few minutes for the doctor to finish up and for the room to get de-cluttered of nurses all around, and it was time for big brother to come! Tricia was sweet enough to pick Ally and him up and luckily didn't have to wait long to get in the room to see us.

Here come the Big Brother

His first glance that Baby Landon was out of Mommy's belly

And now we're a family of four

His excitement level lasted about two minutes, and he was off to play with toys and inspect the room

After some time visiting with our friends everyone headed home after an exciting morning... we were all a little exhausted! We were switched from the birthing room into another private room where we would remain for the rest of our stay. The rest of the day consisted of Landon's bath, the pediatrician checking him out, lots of nurses checking on us non stop, and getting acquainted with our little man. Everything so far has checked out perfect on the both of us. They were slightly concerned about Ryder being "tongue-tied" (the thing under his tongue connecting to far out). Yesterday at the pediatricians office we had this clipped. It made him sad for about a minute and it was over.

Mohawk after his first bath

Later in the afternoon big brother came to visit again

He's kinda proud :)
Don't expect any quality brother photos anytime soon! Ryder gives us about two seconds

Auntie Ally and Landon

Dinner with my big boy

So in love :)

Keeping Ryder occupied at the hospital

Sorry for all the crazy spacing and such on the blog post. Blogger kind of freaks out when you try to load too many pictures. I have so many more we have taken since I started trying to write this two days ago. Our hospital stay was great. We headed home Monday morning. Landon hasn't really woken up since birth so he's not much work at all. We are working on the breast feeding. I didn't do it with Ryder, and we are learning together how to make it work. Hopefully it's a succcesss. Ryder is doing amazing! Grammy and Auntie Ally have been so great taking care of the house and dealing with him. We've had no jealousy issues yet, but in time i'm sure it'll come. The Easter bunny finally made his way to our house this morning :) I'll try to get a post up with lots of picture sometime soon, but until then I have some boys I need to go snuggle!